I'm writing this from a little market in Austin, TX. as I drink a kombucha and watch the cars pass on the other side of the window. I set my drink down on a copy of the Austin Chronicle and smile while Lana Del Ray serenades me through little white ear buds. My whole body is tingling with an aliveness and sense of victory that, if it were to break through the surface of my calm and publicly appropriate demeanor, would probably reveal itself as the most atrocious football style victory dance or at least high pitched screaming laughter. Possibly both. But it remains a buzz pulsating through each individual nerve, lighting up my insides. I bask in the feeling as if it were a spiritual spa. I bathe in each sensation with utter satisfaction. The occasion? We did it. After months and months of literal blood, sweat and tears, there is a palpable sense that we've broken through. A simple transition, as if walking through an invisible veil. But I don't need my eyes to tell me I've made it. We are staying in our renovated vintage airstream trailer in an rv park downtown Austin, in a beautiful and fun area. The air conditioning is finally working in the trailer. We're fully moved in. This is our home. And now, it feels like home. We've painted, decorated, organized. We've played a good number of house shows so far and they've been amazing. All of the sudden everything feels right. I know now that every time I decided not to give up, it was because I knew I'd get here eventually. We closed our eyes and jumped into the arms of faith so many times. We pushed ourselves to live with our hands wide open. Giving, receiving, flowing, believing. Believing in everything we hoped would hold weight. And now, we are victorious. We are airborne on the winds of love itself. Even as I try and describe the circumstances that surround this breakthrough I realize that if you look at those alone you may miss what I trying to express to you. It's deeper, the victory is actually unseen. It's impossible to describe really. It's about presence. It's about breathing in the fullness of life, over and over. It's that I believed something I was told about life, and love, and dreams, and hope. And it turned out to be true.
Believe. Not just in things you desire, but in LIFE. Life is meant to be incredible and dynamic. The challenges and victories are the riches. The letting go is the portal. The openness and the surrender are the keys. Ask and you shall receive. Ask for life. Ask for the fullness. Then believe, embrace what comes, and push for the breakthrough.